Blank page

Posted: September 17, 2012 in Head Clearing

Blank pages have always haunted me. I’ve always felt the need to fill them with something. I sat down today to write something, and I just sat there looking at the blank page on my screen.

It just sits there and taunts me.

“You have nothing worthwhile to say.”

“Nobody really cares what you think.”

“Why are you still wasting your time on this pipe dream?”

“You’ll never amount to anything.”

“Don’t even try. Just give up and go back to ignoring life.”

These voices in my head tell me all these things every time I sit down to try to write something. Sometimes I listen. Obviously, sometimes I don’t, or else you wouldn’t be reading this.

I think most people go through this though. I know that I’m not alone. If you read any blog about writing and creativity, you’ll see that it happens to everyone. But that doesn’t mean the voices aren’t just as loud in my ears. That doesn’t mean I don’t believe them half the time.

I’m not saying that I have anything earth shattering to say. I’m not saying that everyone should listen to the advice I have. I’m not saying that my writing is the best in the world.

I’m just saying that for some reason, I have these words that I need to get out sometimes. If people want to read them, that’s great.

I’d love to have feedback from people. I’d love to make this more of a conversation. A two-way conversation. I’m not really sure how to do that. I know other people are better at the whole conversation thing then I am. I’m aware of my need to work on following up with people who comment. on here. I’m just not sure how to do that.

So, for now I’ll just try to fill the blank pages with a little bit of myself. I’ll try to defy the voices in my head often enough to write a couple of times a week. Hopefully, the more I do defy the voices, the easier it will be to not listen to them at all.

  1. Amber Schwegman says:

    I think my mom told you this… I know she told me more than once… if it’s something you want to do, do it. Do at least one thing every day toward that goal. Maybe you could write to the voices sometimes? Is that weird?

  2. Jennifer says:

    I’d like a snapshot of your day. It would be interesting to see what it’s like On your own with 2 kids on the move.

  3. Cheryl lCole says:

    Just because you don’t write something doesn’t mean you are not thinking – not doing something else that is important. Everyone needs quiet time. Those times are not be be valued less. Clearing your head is always important.

    I appreciate Amber’s comment about doing one thing each day that is important to you. At least that way you can see “hard” evidence of what good you did that day.

  4. Cheri Shafer says:

    Sorry I haven’t commented earlier. I so enjoy just reading whatever you have to share. I know I’m your mom and I’m prejudiced, but you are a great writer. What you write moves my heart and spirit. So, keep filling those blank pages!!!
    Love you,